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last night
2003-07-03 | 8:54 a.m. well, i must say... well i dunno what to say.. i guess we'll start off w/ last night and work our way to.. i dunno.. lol.. ok, last night yah me n meg n ppl went to big.. i wanted to be there AT 5.. so my aunt said we could leave at 4:30 and get there a bit early... well, my brothers landlord from mass was up and came and visited... so we didnt leave until 4:40... and we got to megs and she wasnt ready.. she was in the bathroom for like 20 mins doing god knows what b/c in the car she applied makeup for more than half of the 20 min ride.. when we were going to pull into the big road (you can see the parking lot) carlo's blazer was there (him n charlie) and bolstridge leaning on the door talking.. so my aunt dropped us off and we went in and put our shit down n then went to see em... well, they sat in the fucking blazer for like 15 mins and he didnt say more than 2 fucking words to me.. so then they finally got out and went in.. we kinda stood around/sat on the pool table.. guys on one side, girls on the other, for about 30 mins.. n then him and carlo went outside.. so we grabbed gum and fucking RAN lol by the door they were at to the bowling alley.. they finally came down.. and for the next hour he still lol didnt talk and they left twice.. at one point (OMFW i was about to MURDER megan.. she took it upon herself to act like dr.phil (lol phyllis) and got him to sit by me.. she then tried to get him to put his arm around me n shit.. but we wouldnt talk and he got up n left...) well bolstreidge wanted to call *tyler* (the ass) to see if he was home, to charlie went w/ her to the payphone n me n meg n carlo in the bowling alley.. well they came back and *tyler* (the ass) needed a ride, SO off went carlo and charlie.. i was like fuck yah, hes really gonna talk now that tyler is coming.. n bolstridge is like "hes about to say fuck it if you dont talk to him" WHICH pissed me off b/c he can talk jus as well as i can and.. WTF was i supposed to say.. so they went and got slushies.. and then it started raining so i made them go outside w/ me.. i LOVE rain.. its so peaceful.. and it i dunno makes everything seem so serene and perfect.. and it was a sun-shower so it was raining but the sun was shining.. it was awesome (i love thunderstorms too.. they have so much fury and power.. and then when they are over its all peaceful and quite.. like everything in the world is well again.. damn i wish it was that easy..) so neways we or I hung in the rain.. theu hid in the putt-putt cave b/c "they were cold" (WIMPS lol) it stopped raining and we went back inside.. n then... dun dun dun the guys came.. we were going to go outside but then i was em was like OK other way BUT nooooooo they dragged me out there.. "you'll regret it if you dont talk to him" soooo i went out there.. tyler (the ass) was in moccisins.. which are ok to wear around the house, but NOT the hell in public.. well ok they get out of the blazer (they brought ben too.. tylers stupid ass brother.. more on him later) and are walking up so we meet em like half way.. and lol i threw a gum wrapper at charlie's head.. hahaha i dont think he noticed tho.. SO i was like GRRRRR when we were going to go thru the door.. and made a comment to him about tylers shoes... and then we got in a *mini* convo about it and he took my hand *progress* hahaha so bolstridge and *tyler* (hahaha w/ me now *the ass*) dissapeared.. and charlie n me n meg n carlo went in the acracde room.. n ben was in there.. n he kept whispering shit to charlie WHICH annoys me BUT ooo well.. so went back down to the bowling alley b/c there's the "party room" (ok, like 4 tables n some chairs, a tv n vcr.. woohoo) and we can sit in there.. so i sat in the little window thinger between the bowlnig alley and "party room" and he stood up.. n then he went and sat down at a table, the FAR END of the table mind you so i was like WTF not again.. sooo i got up.. and took like 3 steps ("talking to megan" *wink wink*) so he got up and came and grabbed my hand we went walking.. kinda akward lol b/c we still werent really talking.. so hes like you're quiet.. n yah neways SO we went outside AND saw heather n tyler macking in the covered bridge so hahaha we were like dooo doo doo not looking in that direction.. so things started going up hill.. we talked... about shit.. and went back in... but lol as soon as we got around meg n carlo they stopped talking.. OMG it was soo annoying SO we left again... and went outside.. and him n ben were trying to kill some red squirrels.. well, ben was w/ lol rocks (he has BAD aim hahahaha) and charlie was coaching him b/c i lol had BOTH his hands.. n he kissed me but not like like make-out kiss b/c ben... was there... n then.. o what did we do?? i am having memory lapse.. went back in saw meg n carlo, went out back to the putt-putt again.. walked around b/c ben said that tyler n heather had migrated SO we wouldnt run into em over by the covered bridge.. and there were like 50 million little toads.. they werent the size of dimes... so i caught one to show megan... n lol charlie drowned one (lol and he kept making fun of me b/c of how i say it.. i didnt know i said it any diff then nebody else.. HAHAHA oh and when we were all sitting on the pool table we were talking.. an i was saying something about canada.. and lol i forgot the name of it.. n lol then i kinda remembered and called it canadia ahahaha and he heard so he was talking to carlo about canadia... i felt like an idiot) n then we did something else.. once again i dont member.. then, we went out back of the building (bowling alley) for.. i dunno why we happened to go that way but neways, (o and lol, ive still got my power of making him turn his hat around when we kiss, didnt lose everything i guess) so we made-out/talked back there.. some of the things he said, well, if id had more time id have talked to him about it... we were talking about how i didnt call him on his b-day (i guess he REALLY wanted me to B/C he kept rubbing it in my face that i didnt.. but then i told him that he didnt even remember when mine was, WHICH in fact was true, he dont know it so hahaha) and about how i didnt expect him to dump me... and then he said something that really got me... and, im going to call him today, i havnt yet, and i am going to fireworks tonight so i dunno if ill get to if i wait for him to call me.. (maybe i can get him to go to fireworks... hmmm) but neways, he's like "well, id been really depressed" and i was like "=-O b/c of me??" and hes like "no no. but i was really depressed and the alcohol made it worse... and i was like omg i dont need a girlfriend"... i still dont know what to make of that statement.. ok, 1st, the only reason that he'd been drinking that much (he didnt say this, my knowledge n brains led me to this..) was b/c of carlo. ok, carlo isnt like the type to make fun of some one if they dont or whatnot BUT carlo is 19.. and charlie jus turned 17.. and charlie, like i said before, acts diff infront of his friends... like he HAS to impress them.. so, him getting drunk everyday for 3 weeks obvisouly has something to do w/ carlo.. carlo has hardly, if at all, left charlies presence since he graduated... 2nd, by the sounds of that statement he didnt really want to drink that much.. but felt he had to b/c of everyone else.. *sigh* so neways, i am going to have to have a little chat w/ him later... a serious one b/c... i dont want him depressed.. and if there is something i can do to prevent it, well im gonna do my best and everything (well, not sex yet...) in my power to make him happy.. which is going to be next to impossible since, 1) im leaving for michigan... so i have like 2 n 1/2 weeks until i see him again.. which was how long it was since id seen him before last night.. BUT this time, we're gonna at least talk.. n then i get to see him *hopefully* at big the night before and mollyockett day.. n then i have a week n then camp.. WHERE he is going to have to come visit me b/c its not that far from his mom's house... n 2) b/c my aunt hates him and dont want me hanging out w/ him.. or associating w/ him BUT too bad for her... ok, so she had to come n get me n meg at 9.. so lol at 9 we went in... and i went and got meg.. lol and i had taken off my flip-flops when they had came back and we had gone to the bowling alley the first time.. and lol, i noticed at one point.. and when charlie n i had stolen some kisses in the arcade i was like "uhhh where are my shoes??' and hes like "i dunno" w/ his little "i know something you dont know" grin (which is so adorable and absolutely prevents me from even thinking of getting mad.. it actually makes me smile and laff..) so neways, i let it go and forgot.. and lol we were suposed to be leaving and then i was like WAIT! where are my shoes??? and everyone started cracking up so meg n carlo went off *ahem* to *get my shoes* (took em long enuff hahaha) so me n charlie were having a couples moment when ben came.. ok before this when we were going to get megan hes like "your moms out front.." i was like "its my aunt but thanks!" hes like "no its your mom" i was like "no, my mom's dead" n he didnt believe me. ok so we're talking and he comes back n hes like "want me to go tell your mom that your coming??" and i was like "no, ill do it when we get out there and explain that they his my shoes" and hes like "well i can go tell your mom" and i was like "no, its k" n hes like "your mom isnt dead, ive been saying your mom and you didnt correct me" i was like "dood my mom is dead. my aunt is her twin. and i live w/ her so shes my parent" and hes like "yah i bet. your mom isnt dead" at which point i felt like i was going to cry and charlie was telling him to leace me alone and lol i was glaring at ben n my eyes were tearing up... n then he left... n charlie, who had his arms around me during this btw, rubbed my back and was like "you gonna be ok??" n i was like "yah, eventually" and hes like "better be" and kissed my neck (ok, pause w/ that thought. for some odd reason when he kisses me on the neck, (which he did 3 times last night btw n only twice in the three months before..) makes me want him, right there... the 2 previous times were at his house on his bed, n we didnt do nething.. the others last night, before that one there (after ben the ass.. (jus like his brother... awwww)) were outside n we were talking (ok, lol again, in the entry that talking about when i went to his house, and how he always kissed me when i was trying to talk?) well, last night he kissed me on the neck when i was trying to talk, which, yah turns me on and lol makes me forget what im talking about or lose my sentence so it dont make sence.. grrr hahaha) so yah neways, i had to control my urge to have him right then n there on the floor of the doorway of the arcade hahaha)k, lol back to reality, so we kissed there n then meg n carlo came back n gave me my shoes.. n we left.. w/ him saying he's gonna call me.. so, ill call him and maybewe wont have a repeat of the last time i saw him??? hahaha ok im sure ive bored you w/ my obsessing.. BUT this was my night and i wanted to write it so id member it... gotta go groom... im out
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