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I AM YOUR SHIT. YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF WHAT YOU HAVE EATEN
2003-07-18 | 11:18 pm *sigh* complete happiness... a can of COLD moxie and a berry tie-die fruit by the foot... i called danielle again.. twice lol.. we're meeting tomorrow morning at the gazebo on the common at 11 IN case any one cares... ill be getting into bethel at 9.. at our usual place infront of cafe dicocoa (ya, the cafe w/ the egg-plant shaped and colored sign w/ their name on it... very umm natural and umm cafeish looking...) SO ill have plenty of time to spare.. SO if you wanna hit me up, we can hang there.. jus stop by! im so siked! this year, even tho tomorrow IS my gramps b-day i get to stay out there from 9am to 9pm.. im meeting danielle and missie (please pray for me..) at 11 and im w/ them until after fireworks.. YESSSS! omg tho, bolstridge werent home and chika dont got a ride.. i mean, id can even put up w/ brooke.. i havnt seen my chika since june 16... AHHHHHHHH hehehehe im SOOOOOO excited now.. im meeting my ninno at 4 at her work and then we're gonna hang out the rest of the night. WOOHOOO!! lol if you had known me in 8th grade youd prolly be shitting yourself right now.. we were BEST FRIENDS in 7th grade.. we were together almost EVERY weekend.. and then, for some reason, she dont even remember, she hated me.. almost alll of 8th grade.. at first she got jessi n heather to hate me too.. but then they started hating her.. and jessi still does.. we're friends now again and we're going back to camp together.. i dont know if any of my other friends will be around b/c, for some odd reason, everyone thinks shes a slut.. its sooooooo annoying.. BUT hey, they're making me hang w/ ppl i dont like all day, i think they can stand it for 5 hours?? yes?? naomi is so awesome tho.. shes funny and REALLY purdy.. i always feel ugly around her tho.. :( BUT the last time she saw me, after on the pc shes like "OMG YOU LOOK GOOD!!" SO i guess i wont feel too ugly.. PLUS there wont be any guys around tomorrow.. i dont think.. yah, i didnt call charlie.. im dying to talk to him BUT he can call me b/c.. he jus can.. if he goes tomorrow.. itll be a miracle. that 1 he remembered, 2 he showed up and well i cant think of a 3.. i wonder if hes trying to ignore me b/c he wants to dump me but dont have the balls to?? matt did that.. i mean, he answered his phone once and then said that he wasnt home (matt) hahahahahahaaha how stoopid can you get?? lol charlie pulled a me.. he dumped me b/c tyler told him i was going to dump him SO he took the initiave and dumped me.. (which i wasnt and still arent going to do btw..) well, after a week of me not getting matt (its been a week since i talked to charlie.. :( *sigh*) i had megpie call him.. and hes like "well, our relationship isnt working.." megs like "so you gonna dump her" and hes like "well, i think it would be best if you did" (welcome to 8th grade ppl lol) SO meg called me and told me and i was like wtf NO i want to dump him.. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO we made up this stoopid story about how i had called her house and left a message on her mechine (i dont even think they HAD an answering mechine then lol) about how i wanted to dump matt.. and that she hadnt checked her messages before she called him.. and lol she was like "dont look behind you.. im in the kitchen, where you keep the knives.. how much weight do you think a ceilling fan can hold??" and freaked him out AND dumped him for me.. and i havnt heard from him since.. well, last summer when i was w/ ben *SHUDDER* he went to camp 5th week.. and OMG GUESS WHO WAS THERE AND GUESS WHO WAS IN HIS ROOM????? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MATT!!!!! hahahaaha ben got a letter from me and (infront of my friend katie) matt was like "HEY! i went out w/ her!!" derrr lol. omg it was bad!! i feel dumb for doing it that way.. BUT when you're in middle school you gotta do what ya gotta do ya know.. what this has to do w/ charlie ill never know.. im sorry, right now my elevator isnt quite reaching the top floor.... OMG! JON! i love him! hes SOOOOO FUNNY! lol..: iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: hey this is the bass i got http://www.music123.com/item/?itemno=98191 curly2092: ya iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: lol go look at it curly2092: some other time iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: :-( fine curly2092: i need to go soon curly2092: sry curly2092: ill see it lata iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: its k iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: k iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: promise? curly2092: Someday, we'll look back on this, laugh nervously and change the subject. curly2092: ya iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: lol iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: ok w/e you say curly2092: As the light changed from red to green to yellow and back again, I sat there thinking about life. Was it nothing more than a bunch of honking and yelling? Sometimes it seemed that way. hahaha its random.. BUT that last thinger from him does make since.. life is jus a bunch of honking and yelling.. more yelling then honking in my case.. i have had ppl honk at me before.. and recently.. i dont really care that ppl dont tho.. its kinda embarrassing... speaking of embarrassing.. danielles bday is sunday.. and i got her a whole shit load of stuff.. and a BRIGHT yellow, cheerful bag to put it in.. (i suck at wrapping??) i jus realized that, not only will i be carrying my moxie, ill be carrying her present in a BRIGHT yellow bag.. and if i bring my purse.. no, actually i think im jus gonna do my usual.. bring gum n chapstick (fits in my pockets) keep my money in my bra (and darrin, i only have a lot of ones b/c thats what i get.. i dont carry around a wad of ones to make my boobs look bigger... i like my little boobs i thank you.. AND if i was going to stuff id use sox or something (hahahaha KELLY!! ill tell in a min..) so i didnt have square boobs b/c OMG that'd look natural.. BUT for the record, i have no $$.. so w/e) ok, evil step-sister moment, and, for once, im going to be the evil step sister... ok, there's this kid, eph.. well actually hes not a kid to me, hes 18 or 19 now.. well neways, kelly liked him.. and our church's youth group was going skating at motion 26 (which is like 3 miles from my dads.. so if you're ever egging or doing the flaming-dog-shit-in-a-bag and are in the oxford area, lemme know and ill give you directions.. youd be doing me a HUGE flavor!) ok, neways kelly n eph.. she wanted to impress him.. she wore this white SEE THRU shirt.. and stuffed her bra.. WITH GREEN SOCKS... and lol you could see em thru her shirt.. and hahaha he noticed and asked me if there was something wrong w/ her... AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!! isnt that great?? i think my name should be abby... dear abby.. NO DR.PHIL.. DR.PHILLIS.. lol my friends always come to me w/ their problems.. some times i complain about it, only w/ certain friends tho, who come to me w/ their problems BUT never listen to mine.. and a bunch of my friends do that.. but some of my friends, who have problems BUT dont always share em.. and i always bitch to.. rob, is the point of this rambling.. at the beginning of the year i hated him.. i dont know why.. i didnt have a reason.. and now hes the reason that i refuse to hate some one w/o one.. hes one of my greatest friends.. we dont talk all the time, we like NEVER hang out.. we have disagreements about things.. BUT hes there and i always bitch to him.. and tonight, i became his theripist.. and honestly, it helped me too.. iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: are you going to mollyockett day tomorrow?? RaVeN6P: no RaVeN6P: i had such a shitty fucking night iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: damn it iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: why? iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: tell iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: me RaVeN6P: my girlfriend, me, and her two friends went to the fair, her friends ignored her and conversed amongst themselves the entire time and that made her feel so bad, and than to top it off, we went on the zipper and 50$ fell out of her pocket, she had 5 left, and there was a win 50$ rock climbing thing, coast 5$, our LAST 5 dollars, i was convinced i could do it, i got two steps from winning then had a dizzy spell and nearly slipped unconcious and fell iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: awww, well you tried to make her feel better iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i hate it when my friends do that.. and they always do RaVeN6P: .... iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: so give her a hug for me and tell her that her friends are dumb and that shes prolly to intellectual to talk to em neways or something RaVeN6P: i sweet talk all the time, and i mean every word i say but it just goes one ear and out the other, but whenever somone insults her, she takes right to heart iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: im the same way.. she prolly wants to believe you but shes been hurt so many times that she doesnt know how to believe it.. and shes so used to insults that she jus eats em like pie.. or cake.. i prefer cake b/c pie is gross. well, w/e she prefers, she eats it like that iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: lol sorry if im not making since.. my brain isnt working and im hyper.. BUT i do mean what i said.. RaVeN6P: yes... people call her fat, jus because she has pot belly..... shes not fat tho RaVeN6P: you are making perfect sense deej iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i think its redicilus (sp??) when ppl call ppl fat.. whats fat?? i mean 250, 300 for short ppl... and most girls... BUT hello? who is society to tell some one that they're fat iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i think that fat ppl, like FAT ppl, that are OVER WEIGHT.. like umm my grandma rawding who's like 300 can do something about their weight.. BUT still dont make fun of it.. my god.. RaVeN6P: shes about my height and weighs about 165 iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: whoopty do?? RaVeN6P: exactly iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: beauty is in the eye of the beholder RaVeN6P: I SAY THAT ALL THE TIME RaVeN6P: nobody listens to me RaVeN6P: ..... iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: and ppl that make fun of other ppl only do it to make themself feel better b/c they are insecure in some other way RaVeN6P: i tell her that all the time, everyday RaVeN6P: its like it goes in one ear and out the other iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i have the exact opposite problem... everyone, including my bf, calls me annorexic.. and i think im fat. its confusing RaVeN6P: shes such a great person tho, it really does kill me to see her hurt iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: well, keep telling her.. and trying to prove it to her.. she'll listen someday.. and its prolly building her up little by little.. RaVeN6P: I hope so RaVeN6P: i cant wait till somone insults her in public, i wanna see how she reacts when i make them beg for her forgiveness RaVeN6P: "KISS HER FUCKING SHOE, NOW!"..... then i kick em in the teeth iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i hate it when ppl so shit like that.. i hate watching ppl fight.. and i hate ppl getting made fun of.. even if iHATE the person.. iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: lol iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: when some one else crys, it always makes me want to cry.. ESPECIALLY if its some one i care about RaVeN6P: i fight for what i believe and if somone hurts somone i love, ill fight to the fucking death iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: well i wouldnt go that far, westleigh, b/c she might still want you around.. and if you killed some one well, you wouldnt be and then who'd comfort her? RaVeN6P: true iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: *westleight btw, is the prince from princess bride.. and he says he'll fight to the death to get his princess.. and he wins lol and gets her.. iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: jus reminded me so i had to put it in.. RaVeN6P: Well i dont really care to fight... but its because i know how i can get.... you havent seen it..... RaVeN6P: i lose controll so badly that i dont realize what im doing iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: and i prolly dont want to iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: temporary insanity?? you'd get a lighter prison sentence.. RaVeN6P: one time this kid, steven, was my age and he was hitting this 12 yr old, i walked up and pushed him back told him he was only a little kid and to cut the shit, he swung a punch, i ducked and tackled him to the ground, i sat there and pounded on his face till my mom, stepdad, and our 2 neighbors all ripped me off him, by the time i was done i broke his nose, and the next day both his eyes were swelled shut iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: lol o dear iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i hope i never piss you off iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: wait.. i already have :-( RaVeN6P: that doesnt matter, i can never hit a women iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: will you spank your kids?? RaVeN6P: no iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: me either iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: my dad never spanked me until he got married to lynn RaVeN6P: ill send them to their room, everytime with increasing duration iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: and she used to spank me whenever she got mad.. even if she wasnt mad at me.. and she used an inch, inch n 1/2 think paddle.. she broke 2 on me.. in 2 years... RaVeN6P: like ill start off sending them up for 10 mins, every time they do wrong it will double, 10-20-40-80-160 RaVeN6P: so they dunt wanna fuck up iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: she usually missed my butt and got my lower back.. and i still have back problems on occasion... RaVeN6P: and every year ill move it up, 20-40-80 RaVeN6P: 40-80 RaVeN6P: and so on iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: that sounds good.. and time outs.. and groundation.. RaVeN6P: yep iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: BUT im gonna be leaniant on groundations b/c i dont want my kid sneaking out iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: and, im not gonna be all weird, like w/ sex, i want em to come talk to me n not be afraid to.. afraid id get mad or something.. iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: like my aunt.. im afraid to tell her, when ever i do have sex, b/c shes agianst it and she'll get pissed and like never let me set foot out of the house again RaVeN6P: ima tell my kid straight up "look you wanna get laid, i dont care, AS LONG AS YOU WRAP IT, if you dont, your gonna be one bruised kid" iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: lol iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: and if its your son, prolly the bruising will come from the girls dad RaVeN6P: ill give the girls dad first hit, no face, ass, with a leather belt RaVeN6P: with studs iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: ouch RaVeN6P: yea, ouch iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: ive been hit w/ a belt iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: it hurts iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: belt buckle especially haha tho.... im a funny one: iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: OMG i got my BASS GUITAR TODAY!! iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: did i already tell you? RaVeN6P: saweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet (gave him the site) iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: its the exact same one.. but its a darker silver in real life RaVeN6P: omfg i hate you RaVeN6P: im in love with it iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: =-O :-( lol RaVeN6P: to bad i just want electric iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i got it at mainely drumz in lewiston RaVeN6P: coooool iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: OMG the guy, that sold it to me.. *DREAMY* lol and he gave me 40% OFF the guitar AND amp RaVeN6P: niiiiiiice iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i got the guitar, amp, cable, gig bag, a bass book n a strap for 389$ iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i swear that hes an angel RaVeN6P: fucken right eh? iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: yah lol and he was hot... deff angel.. iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: might have even been jesus lol well, prolly not BUT perhaps.. anit-christ.. wait, no, thats marilyn manson *screams* *"I AM THE ALL-AMERICAN ANIT-CHRIST. I WAS RAISED IN AMERICA, AND AMERICA HAS MADE ME WHAT I AM!!! I AM YOUR SHIT. YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF WHAT YOU HAVE EATEN...."* that song, rock n roll nigger, is really rasist.. and i hate that BUT that line right there, is SO my line... it makes SO since.. well im not the all-american anit-christ.. BUT the whole *i am your shit* part.. its OMG lol.. the likkle thingers that speak to me.. yah, america.. what a life! 1/2 the nation is at least 50 lbs over weight and the other 1/2 weigh 50 lbs and are standing over a toilet making themselves puke so they can be the shrivled up little things that americans think are attractive.. im guilty of thinking im fat.. ive been annorexic and i starve myself on occasion... and yes, i know i say i dont care what ppl think, but i care what i think.. and i think im fat. plain and simple.. lol BUT here i am drinking soda and eating... shit! lol hahaha ok neways i gotta go.. to BED! tomorrow, tomorrow, ill love ya, tomorrow.. night prolly b/c i wont be home until then.. *shrug* dont miss me too much.. ***(((((MUAH)))))*** ~*peas n love*~ |