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could you look me in the eyes and tell me that you're happy now??
2003-07-23 | 9:28 a.m. *...I can't pretend I don't care, When you don't think about me. Do you think I deserve this? I tried to make you happy but you left anyway. I'm trying to forget that, I'm addicted to you But I want it and I need it, I'm addicted to you. Now it's over,Can't forget what you said, And I never wanna do this again. Heartbreaker...* yah, well i called shaun... the first time no one answered.. the second time (lol) his dad answered.. i asked for shaun and hes like "SHAUN?!?!?!" in a way that i thot i had to wrong number.. and i was like "yeeea" *pause* "he's not here" and some more babble from me "he works until 9" SOOO to make a long story short im gonna call him.. is 10 too early?? or should i wait until 11:30? or will he be eating lunch then?? god lol.. the things i think of.. o well w/e... last night i had a complete moment.. and i dunno why even.. well, my aunt got home and she hemmed and hawed and tutted and bitched until she went to bed.. none of my friends called me (SURPRISE!) and well im still having some certain issues (n no, not pms lol.. i have 3 weeks until im supposed to have pms...) ppl issues.. i woke up to the sound of rain on the roof.. i loooooove that sound.. its so.. peaceful? and drowns out all kindsa shit.. for example the birds.. i know that most ppl like hearing the birds.. and i do, BUT not first thing in the morning.. they're WAAAAAY too shrill and they never change what they are talking about.. they jus say it over and over and over.. *GAH!* its SOOOOO fraking annoying.. another thing i hate being woken up by is my aunt.. she comes in, says "Morning hun!" like im supposed to be all *WOOHOO* and then she come and takes a plop on my bed.. normally on my legs.. and talks and talks... my head processes NONE of this and then later, most likly RIGHT before she goes to bed.. or right after dinner she asks me (*quizzes* me) on the shit she told me first thing in the morning.. and then she bitches and bitches b/c i dont remember.. i swear she bitches enuff i could freeze it and have enuff to last me thru the winter.. dont ask.. that last thinger made ne sence..w/e i guess lol... i got in bed.. layed there.. and thought... i hate thinking.. i always think of things that depress/upset me.. and not cool.. ima go call danielle but ill write more later.. <3 |