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GAH! fucking BITCH
2003-07-24 | 8:25 a.m. *...I don't wanna make this harder than I have to, This is how it has to be. There's so many things I want to say, But you just don't listen to me. I don't want to hurt you, You don't want to hurt me. I can't stand you And you can't stand me. We can't rearrange, You can never change me. Say goodbye. Nothing I say could change your mind cuz...* yah, i know i shouldnt be on the pc IF shauns suposed to be calling me BUT i doubt he'll be doing it this early.. and im gonna go vaccum in a sec.. but first, i need to bitch.. last night i was getting off the computer and my aunt came upstairs. it was around 9:15.. she comes FLYING into the computer room "I TOLD YOU TO BE OFF THE COMPUTER AT 9 AND ITS WAAAAAY PAST THAT, NOW GET OFF!!" so i wasnt saying anything and i was shutting it off and she goes in to the bathroom to brush her teeth.. "Well, i know what after you get off that you're going to dub around and wash your face for 2 hours. we need to get to bed tonight." (and since when is having good hygene dubbing??) so i go into the bathroom to brush my teeth.. and shes brushing her and blocking the ENTIRE sink.. so im like umm "ya wanna move so i can brush my teeth?" SOOO she moved and started bitching about how i had better hurry up b/c she needed to put her rollers in and blah blah SO needless to say i was done brushing my teeth BEFORE her.. so i go into my room and shes asking me this n that SO i answer her BUT she didnt hear me (AND SHE DIDNT HEAR ANY OF MY ANSWERS THE FIRST TIME..) SO i had to repeat them all ... SO then she comes out and shes babbling "thanks for getting right around tonight. WE need to get some sleep b/c tomorrow is gonna be busy" n blah blah blah. i had HAD ENUFF so i snapped and yelled "why dont you say I for once instead of WE b/c this has nothing to do w/ me!" so while im "dubbing" in the bathroom shes standing in the doorway BITCHING AT ME!!! so much for wanting to get to bed huh?? anyways, i got into bed and my light shut off before her.. all her bitching gone bad.. not only that shit BUT shes volunteered me to volunteer at the hospital again and I DONT WANT TO... i only agreed to go friday b/c i want to see my friends and the only way i can see them for more than a few mins IS to go to work w/ her and get dropped off.. b/c if i waited for her to get home, eat (she is the SLOWEST eater) and drive me back out there my friends would have had to be home lol... yup, this is what its like every night.. its soooo annoying and drives me completely bonkers.. 2 nights ago when we were downstairs I WAS COOKING DINNER, she was making pies for something and my grandfather was peeling carrots.. i hate him SOOOOOO FUCKING MUCH some times.. so shes standing here bitching at me and im answering back (yes, i was sassy BUT i wasnt rasing my voice.. i was jus being a bitch) and my grandfather gets all involved. he said something to the effect "i know you hate living here SO if you find a place you like better feel free to move in there" (thank you lynn) there we go! the other part of my "family" doesnt want me either.. i told him that if i could find a place i would. and thats the fucking truth.. if i had a place to go, SIGN ME THE FUCK UP! omg i hate living w/ ppl.. ones that try to act like your parent.. all my FUCKING life ive taken care of myself b/c ive had no choice SO ive become VERY indepentant. i hate being told what i can and cant do.. my aunt doesnt understand this b/c she had the perfect family life (hello, she still lives at home and shes 56) SO she treats me like im 15. (which i am...) i dont see this as fair b/c when i was 9 n 10 i was treated like an adult and ive jus taken a step BACK. i mean i dont like the way i was treated.. id prefer NOT to be hit BUT if being hit gets me treated older, hell i might risk it. running away is childish and i have no place to go BUT OMG id love to right about now.. my aunt always tells me that im more mature than kids my age.. so i dont get why she cant treat me like i am.. serisouly, i dunno what im gonna do BUT its gonna be something i swear TO GOD..
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