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music heals broken hearts..
2003-08-13 | 12:08 a.m. *...Do you wanna know what I think of you? 'Cause you're not the way I thought you should be. Do take back what you said, It's time to fix, it's time to fix your head. And now all alone, one's less than two, I've never been better off living lonely. To listen to what you say I couldn't care less of what you say. What did you think of me acting this way? I guess you never really thought at all. Is that what you call your brain? Is that why I call you hang up on me? I wanted to know, I didn't want to lose, And now I'm a man who's just living small. Listen to what you say, I couldn't care less of what you say To me as I walk alone, I'd Much rather be riding prone, then To be just another one you are lame to ... Don't talk to me as I walk alone, I'd Much rather be riding prone, than Be just another one you are lame to Don't talk to me as I tune you out of my mind. Won't bend over backwards or Take another step ahead to Hear from you again....* ok wellllllllll... i dunno.. my wrist hurts.. my carpal tunnel one.. well, im gonna bitch a bit. but not too much... today was practically perfect.. nothing went terribly wrong.. i had orentation today... for the THIRD time.. and its the SAME OL THING EVERY YEAR.. it was me, some josh kid (that was wearing claddahs... made him cool.. and then i noticed that he was wearing a nike shirt WHICH automatically make him uhh not cool..) and 6 other lady ppl... *ho hum* after orentation i went to med info and typed patient shit... only took an hour.. so then i organized some paperwork and pulled files for another hour and a half... left there at 4:30.. went to the eye drs, picked up my boxes of contacts.. then to wallys world... i got some shit for school... gel, razors, conditioner, toothpaste, mouth wash.. and this cloth.. ok, ill admit it, i can barely sew.. but i saw this cloth.. its light/lime green w/ white stars.. it is SO ME! it contrasts w/ my red hair.. the color makes me look pale but the nice FAIR color (like an irish chick in a harlequin romance novel lol).. the green is lighter and brighter than my eyes BUT it makes them look a deffinate green.. im either going to make it into a wrap-around skirt... or a strapless wrap-around dress for home-comming.. 1st, i dunno if im going to home-comming.. 2) i dunno if my boobs are big enuff to hold up a strapless dress... 3) how would i hold a gown together?? i dont want to not have it sewed.. i might as well go to the dance in a bedsheet.. *cheese louise* neways, im in love w/ the stuff no matter what.. and there is this other that is COMPLETELY hard to describe.. its black/multi-colored/matallic/see thru.. last year i wanted to be ariel from lil mermaid for halloween... that stuff over a plain dark-green cloth would make a perfect skirt for the bottom.. and a purple tube-top would do the trick.. maybe ill have terri to make me one if i get her the shit and pattern and fittings... ill have to think about it.. ok, so after wally's we went to, w/e the chinese restaurant in mexico is, well that place, for paula's bridal shower.. of course jes was there.. so me n her chatted.. she isnt coming back to telstar next year OMG im gonna DIE w/o my jesi!! ahhhhhhh but neways she wants me to go down there w/ her next friday.. and spend the night.. now to find a ride HOME on saturday.. and convince my aunt to let me go.. after all.. jes is 19.. but o well... shes cool shit.. my aunt better.. so we're sitting here eating.. and jes was tellin me about how heather better not come in.. and i was like "heather who??" and shes like "james g/f (they HATE each other.. heather was hittin on ray at prom i guess...)... they live like 3 houses down from here (the resturant).. her mom is large.. really large.. and they drive their van here like alllll the time..".. 10 mins later she looks at the door and goes "OH SHIT" and yep, sure enuff heather, her parents.. and JAMES (aka jimmy... the guy i said i missed..) well, i saw here mom and started laffing (jes described it.. funny shit) and then *heather* noticed us lookin at james and crossed her arms.. so i mimicked her.. lol.. she looked pissed.. well.. we ate.. got done.. had cake.. went up to pay.. we were in full view from their table.. or where james was sittin.. and jes was like "hes lookin at us".. me n jimmy WERE friends.. i wanted to wave.. but when we'd look at him he'd put his head down and stare at his plate.. way to be in love.. im sad b/c i thot we were friends.. i was introduced to her at winter carnival.. and lol shes got a big gap between her front teeth.. and shes one of those ppl that think they can dance.. but cant.. ppl like that annoy me lol.. but w/e.. thats how guys in maine are.. whoot.. jake hasnt been on in like 2 days.. *hummm* zach n mike n liz (mikey's sis) are goin on friday. and me n shebah.. *YAY!!!* and shebah, im not gonna ditch you.. i *heart* you.. you my sista @ heart ~:> and no offence to liz BUT shes preppy.. and we allll know what i think about preps.. i was going to say somethin about zach.. right there lol BUT i didnt.. BE PROUD.. this should be called "zach-basher".. lol.. i feel bad BUT sometimes he's weird lol. like the whole water massager-thinger in the mall.. well put it this way, *NEVER USE ONE AGAIN!!!* lol.. i guess my dad called tonight.. like 10 mins before i got home.. he had a nice chat w/ gramps.. GOD only knows what they talked about.. hopefully this means that i still get $$.. b/c i need it BADLY.. and at first i was like =-O OMG my dad called.. (come on, my dad hasnt called me since like the middle of may.. b/c we got in a BIG fight about me going to charlies.. and he said some shit that makes NO SENCE.. and it pissed me off. and he isnt forgiven... i jus want $$.. and then he can ignore me some more.. wont be hard for him im sure.) and then i realized that its wednesday.. well, that cult he belongs to has church on wednesdays.. so his lil wifey n kids were at church.. and he was prolly on A) a pay-phone or B) a phone-card.. b/c im long distance n id show up on the phone bill.. *GOD FORBID that ppl know that he called his daughter... shame, shame... well, everyone is leaving me.. and im tired.. ive gotten like 8 hours of sleep in 2 days.. im *deprived*.. i miss.. well, im not going to say who i miss.. b/c i feel stupid.. and no one believes me that i miss em.. i told shebah and mikey tonight and they were like "no you dont" and "NO NO NO!! you cant!"... i asked mike how he knows i didnt.. and he goes "trust me".. ok w/e.. *MIKEY THE ALL-KNOWING* hahahahahaha... NOT!! ok, welllll.... im gonna go.. do something else.. bass tabs or something.. no one is leavin me many tagboard messages.. suddenly ive had like 4 note thingers lol.. o well, at least a FEW ppl love me lol... thats all from the peanut gallery for now... until tomorrow.. |