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livin my *lil virgin life*.. and LOVIN IT!!!
2003-08-14 | 12:51 p.m. *…..I don't want to urinate on myself, I don't want to urinate on anyone else, Well, I guess that really doesn't matter anymore, Because I can't control my bladder anymore. Well, I guess it all depends (undergarments) Well, I guess it all depends (undergarments). Step back in the light, No more soiled nights alone, But I guess I don't have a care, Because there's not a load in my underwear. I'm sick of offending everyone I meet, (go, go, go, go), I'm sick of crying myself to sleep on rubber sheets (go), I had an accident today, I left a soil on a bus seat, I didn't know what to say. But, I guess it all depends (undergarments) Well, I guess it all depends (undergarments). Step back into life (go, go), No more soiled nights alone. Well, I guess that I don't have a care, If I don't have a load in my underwear…….* first of all: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG i havnt had a laff this good in a LONG time..(since camp...) and honestly i prolly shouldnt be laffing... i have been laffing all day.. from the time i fell out of bed until now... and i still am... yep, i fell outta bed.. and laffed.. it HURT lol.. i landed on my fan and some shoes.. and it made me laff.. i had little square boxes on my legs n (im assuming) my ass... and then lol i went downstairs and locked the door.. (see, im laffing lol.. and there is nothing funny about it..) ok, BUT thats not the firstly i was talking about.. i was bored so at like 11 i went i came on the pc... and no one was on to talk to on my new sn.. so i went on my old one.. and charlie was on lol.. so i went about my normal business of making coffee and doin laundry.. well, youve got to read the convo lol... ok here: Leavittbites: whats up chicken head wondring if i could have merchants # (i was away so my LONG ASS away message came up) iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: nope you cant and learn to spell Leavittbites: well just to let u know i will find him and beat him just for you (again, my away message) Leavittbites: i cant wait to do that Leavittbites: so just keep having fun in your lil virgin life Leavittbites: and by the way it was fun going out with you i got a kick out of it Leavittbites: to bad i had a g/f the whole time Leavittbites: have a nice life iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: is this supposed to piss me off or make me depressed? iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: cause it isnt doin either Leavittbites: no i thought i would just let u know iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: ooo i c iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: good thinkin Leavittbites: i cheated on u the whole time Leavittbites: i wasnt a virgin either iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: thats good iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: congrats! iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: yah i knew that Leavittbites: u were just a piece of ass iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: i knew that too Leavittbites: that i didnt get iLoVeHuNnYbEeS: yah im not as easy as i look huh? hahahahahahahahaha he is such an ass.. and so middle school.. i remember, back in the day *sigh* when you got dumped/you dumped some one, the fad was to make yourself look so cool and like it didnt hurt you.. so you'd say a WHOLE bunch of shit.. and lol it was supposed to tear the other person down or i dunno what it was supposed to do.. ben also tried this by making me feel guilty b/c he *almost, almost smoked weed* o damn! i know hes lil church boy so thats a big thing for him but *whoopty do!?!?!?!* all my friends do that.. well like 98% of them do.. so i dunno why that would worry me now, i dont doubt that charlie did that shit lol, but well in a way i do.. why the HELL would you tell some one that unless you were trying to get at them or something.. note the word try.. i guess all that shit WOULD have bothered me if i had done things i regret.. but i have the satisfaction of knowing that he didnt get what he wanted out of the "relationship" or w/e you want to call it... and the satisfaction of knowing that i didnt do anything to put myself in the position of getting hurt.. if i HAD had sex w/ him id prolly be a wreck.. but i didnt!! *hum hum hum...* and im happy.. and yes thank you, ill be goin right along w/ my VIRGINITY.. whats wrong w/ being a virgin?? uhhh the fact that i wont be all stretched out and full of std's by the time im 20? or ummm that ill be able to say i kept MYSELF for some one that deserves me and actually loves ME and not the space between my legs.. if i was charlie id be pissed too if i had been it for that and didnt get what i wanted.. im happy, i got what i wanted for a bit.. yah know, one thing i must say, a lil advice for those of you that like trying to push ppl over, jus b/c some one has a hard life and not much love, doesnt mean that they're gonna throw themselves and goal/morals into the relationship jus b/c you say the 3 big words... i have had a relitively shitty life n its still shitty.. but i wanna do my things.. see if i can turn this boat around eventually.. and me doing things that hurt ME arent gonna help.. i cant change what other ppl do to me.. their actions or words.. but i can stand for what I BELIEVE and what I WANT in life.. and hope that everything turns out ok.. that is why im laffing... b/c in 10 years hes either gonna be 1) livin in the cumberland county jail or some other jail, 2) be dead/dying from aids or some other std 3) be livin in his camaro b/c he uses all of his money for weed, 4) be like his dad (who seems cool btw so no offence to him) who has been married a bunch of times. and he'll have like 12 kids from 11 girls.. one being his wife w/ 2 kids.. and the other 10 not.. he prolly wont graduate, he'll work at a gas station and sell pot for extra cash.. or he'll continue to mooch off his parents like he is now... way to BE! i cant wait until im independant.. i mean not jus able to do what i want but to do grown-up things.. get a job n a car n an apartment... go to school.. get a good job, pay bills.. get married.. have a couple kids.. it sounds so good to be able to depend totally on me.. i have almost for forever BUT not completely.. i still have to ASK ppl for $$.. and eat their food and sleep in their house.. i dont like doing that.. i feel like im livin off charity.. some day ill repay my aunt... b/c i feel that what she is doin is completely unnecessary.. i *heart* her (and i NEVER say that.. i kinda feel bad.. i jus dont like useing those words.. can you see why now??) i will say that charlie was no diff then anyother guy ive dated EXCEPT for the fact that i really did love him.. (and im not going to deny the fact i did) how dumb was i?? well, everyone else cheats on me.. so why wouldnt he?? after all, he's obvisouly got NO MORALS or GOALS in life EXCEPT for being dead before he turns 20... w/e.. this will be the last time, or practically last time that you hear about him.. im done, over him.. its DEEJ-O TIME!! and time for more coffee... |