leave me once, leave me twice, kiss good-bye that will suffice
08.19.03 | 10:54 pm

*....I picked out your star, Turned night to day. A simple whisper from your voice, And I fade away. You wish for love. You pushed me away. Your love for me was everything I need, The air I breath. she, now she's all alone. Her eyes they drown in tears. Their love was meant to last But she is blind with fear. Now I go, away, Now I know, today. Leave me be, Now I'm free. Love reflecting everything. You want space I need you to help me see this through....*

we went to the ocean today and as i predicted it sucked.. yep, my gramp got grouchy.. we got lost but COME ON, we're in MAINE, if you get lost you can figure out where you are.. learn to read a map?? so neways, he hemmed and hawed and bitched.. and i didnt have a cd player... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh you dont even know.. so then, instead of going to MY restaurant we go to this place, Este's II?? and ok, it cost an arm and a leg for a LITTLE bit of food.. it was good BUT they didnt have the good ice cream things.. or the mushrooms.. and then.. we went to the beach, and yes, gramp sat in the jeep while we went in the stoopid gift/trinket shop (i got 2 1.99$ mood rings tho.. *rock on!! party naked!!*) and wandered on the rocks.. and was an ass hole about 20 mins after we left.. *whoot whoot*

then when we were going thru Lisbon we stopped at the MoXiE store.. we got MoXiE ice cream, and i got a MoXiE t-shirt for school and a MoXiE sticker for my locker.. yay!!!

so we got into lewistion around umm 3?? and so i wanted to go to bullmoose to buy a CD (all-american rejects)... and he mumbled and grumbled.. and then we went to wally world (my aunt needed a tracfone card) and i got reliant K (the anatomy of the tongue in cheek), batteries and a NEW DISC-MAN!!!... hahahahaha!! its YELLOW.. like BRIGHT YELLOW.. so then we went to subway (or i did) and got a 12 incher (the bigger the better :D or so they say?) and i sat my norway lake and ate it.. (ok, big pennesewasse BUT OMG who the HELL wants to write that out or say it everytime they mention the lake..) then they dropped me off at church.. IN MY PANTS.. yep, i weared em.. hehehe and they didnt say anything..

matt (w) want me to go the thinger at the fair grounds on saturday.. and my dad is going.. so i prolly HAVE to wear a skirt... ahhhhhhh.. O WELL!!

ok, when i mentioned, the 12 incher thing, lol it reminded me of camp.. yes, church camp ppl and im ashamed to admit that my lil mind was in the gutter almost all week.. when ppl didnt think it was.. but it often wasnt when ppl thot it was (zach, i didnt think tittle was a perv word in tab.. that isnt why i laffed.. i thot it was a funny word.. and still do lol) but ok, some how we got onto the convo of umm guys.. lol and their parts.. first it was the size (shoe and top of wrist to elbow is the MYTH.. i dunno if its true) so yah, we talked about *wankers* all week.. and thats what we called em too lol (*HOW BIG'S YOUR WANKER???* was the question we always asked lol) and we got onto the subject of what's good for sex... to me, or in my mind, wider is.. i mean come on, i really dunno how much i'd be turned on it some guy's dick came out my belly button.. and the whole pencil dick thing?? deff wider.. but, since im a virgin i do not know these things.. lol and neither did anyone else that this was discussed with (sheb n nin n me lol.. who ELSE?? lol) so neways.. lol and honestly, i dont really care... b/c well, im sure they'd both get the job done right now b/c im not all *streched oout*..it was jus a comment.. and i dunno why i wrote it.. jus onea those things yah know??

fucker (speaking of... lol) school starts in TWO WEEKS.. and i need binders still.. and book covers.. and i need to find my calculator.. and clean out my bag.. *argh*.. so much to do and so little time.. i also need to finish that damn book report.. *AHHHHHHHHHHH* LAAAAAWD help meeeeeeeee!!!!! the book SUCKS... it BLOWS.. i HATE IT.. it's BAD.. it's a PIECE OF SHIT.. a tiny PIECE OF HELL.. w/e its DUMB.. get the point??? why the hell do we have to do summer reading any way?? in high school?? i mean, COME ON.. and i thought that Of Mice and Men was stupid.. well i hadnt seen NOTHIN yet.. i wonder what the HELL we're gonna have to read NEXT summer... grrrrrr

i didnt talk to shebah alllll the ding-dong day.. and mikey n liz didnt go tonight.. at the fun park, there was this dood.. he was a worker.. and lol he was doing the trampoline and i walked by talkin to jan, and i was like "that little boy is cute!!" b/c there was a lil boy on it.. and umm i think he thot i ment him.. so i was standing, waiting for them to get off the go-carts (i cant drive, i must admit, so im afraid to make an ass out of myself) and lol he came up the stairs with TWO cases of BOTTLES of water.. so started cracking up and asked him if he was thirsty.. and *HE WINKED* i was like OMGOMGOMG lol.. so then he comes and stands next to me and is like "how come you arent on em??" and im like "i think they're stupid??" and hes like "ooo" AND OMG LOL CHRIS... i guess i wouldnt have looked like too much of a moron.. he's got his licence right?? prolly b/c he's a grampa driver.. he came in last.. he was going like 5 miles per hour.. and i was LAFFING SO HARD.. every one kept LAPING HIM lol.. so i pointed it out to the dood.. and hes watching.. and hes like (lol) uhh yah he IS going purdy slow.. and lol so when it was time for them to come into the lanes, (they slow em down) chris couldnt go anymore (b/c he didnt have enought speed lol) and started rolling backwards.. WE STARTED CRACKING UP lol and he yells to one of the other worker doods "your gonna have to PUSH HIM".. lol i almost shit myself it was sooo FUNNY!! and then lol i went and played arcade games w/ randy n matt n linda.. and then (lol) i wanted to see him again.. so i went and got ice cream.. and while i was waiting i went out onto the balcony.. and he looked up and we made eyecontact... *i felt like cinderella* except knowing that prince charming will never be seen again.. and no, i didnt drop my shoe when i was leaving... *sigh* perhaps i should have??

i gotta find out when jay plays telstar at home b/c or at least field hockey plays each team twice, once home and once away... SOOOO jake MUST come here.. so im gonna mark it on my calendar and BE THERE lol.. humm im soooo bored... so im gonna go

until tomorrow

:.+*muah*+.:


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