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iTs My OnE hUnDrEdTh EnTrY!!!
08.21.03 | 10:22 pm *...I feel pretty, Oh, so pretty, I feel pretty and witty and bright! And I pity Any girl who isn't me tonight. I feel charming, Oh, so charming. It's alarming how charming I feel! And so pretty, That I hardly can believe I'm real. See the pretty girl in that mirror there: Who can that attractive girl be? Such a pretty face, Such a pretty dress, Such a pretty smile, Such a pretty me! I feel stunning, And entrancing, Feel like running and dancing for joy, For I'm loved, By a pretty wonderful boy!...* NOT i dont feel pretty, or witty.. well maybe witty but not bright. charming?? nope, im a bitch. im not wearing a dress either.. nor do any guys love me.. not even my dad!! what a pitiful world it is! not really.. im jus sooo tired and there is this little beetle thing running around behind the computer.. humm i have learned a very hard lesson today. one that no one even warned me about. i should have known.. i dont know why it didnt occur to me.. *Never eat a sour tangerine altoids after you brush your teeth!!* its soooo gross!! i almost cried.. and i sucessfully watched 1/2 of passions w/o seeing the damn clown.. *YAY* o and general hospital?? WHY THE HELL DOESN'T the chick tell her husband that she had a mis-carriage.. yep, this plot is a little predictable huh?? its gonna turn into a crock of shit and she'll find out shes got a long lost sister who fucked her husband who turns out to be her estranged father, so her nephew who is also her brother, is also her step-son.. she flipps out and goes to a bar. she meets *bob*. bob seems like a nice gentleman but he's really a hitman from the bronx that came to take out her father/husband/brother-in-law figure. she is still in love with.. so she'll sleep w/ bob and get a taped confession from him. she give it to her incest love, who doesnt care, calls her a slut.. and then him and bob come clean about being gay lovers and move to vermont... yup... thats my prediction.. I LOVE SOAP OPRAHS!! not! well, some days i feel like im living in a soap.. (no, not b/c i fucked some one and it turned out to be a long lost family member.. or anything like that.. im also not rich and my last name isnt longbottom or fitzgerald or buttfuck.. or some other *fancy* olde english name that comes w/ $$.. maybe some day ill switch it to that..) but tonight i had to go wait on tables at my aunt's church's supper.. ok, there is this girl, my age (16 maybe??) who came w/ her parents.. she was there last time but was late.. she's my height and her waist is about 10 inches around.. shes got BLEACHED BLONDE hair thats thinning (HEY!! thats what yah get when you obsessively dye it.. IT FALLS OUT!! im sure she'll be using rogane by the time she's 20) and shes got about an inch and a half of BLACK ROOTS.. it was like 95 degrees (no exaggrating) and she was in these jeans, that her bony little hips were sticking out of.. she had on this RED SWEATSHIRT but jacket type thing.. that came down to about a foot ABOVE her pants showing acres of back/crack.. (great sight to see while serving food to FEASTING ELDERLY *ahem*) i guess she had a pink tank-top underneath but i didnt see it.. didnt come up very high i guess.. then her hat.. O LORD... her hat.. it was verrrrry chirstina-ish.. but like 2 sizes to big.. and white.. and fuzzy.. w/ lil *mini* POMPOMS.. allllllllll over it... ahhhhhhhhhhhh lol she omg looked like a child prostitute.. and her bf... mmmmmmmhhhmmmmm lol.. he was so surfer.. chin length blonde hair, black jeans, t-shirt, vans.. VERRRRY hot.. at one point they went to the bathroom.. (*note: the bathroom is a little room w/ ONE TOILET and a sink.. not a fancy little thinger w/ multiple stalls..*) and umm i dont think either of them needed any help.. at first i jus figured that they didnt want to go alone (b/c hey i do that w/ my friends.. they STAND OUTSIDE while i go and we chit-chat thru the door.. not very attractive (and umm you look dumb jus standing, talking to the bathroom door but hey, it prolly looks dumber when it talks back.. so w/e) lol o well) but 5 mins became 10, 10 became 15.. they had to have been gone for like 20 mins.. i had the urge to go knock on the door and ask if they had fallen in.. or to kindly remind them that churches forbid pre-marital sex and since this was a house of God then perhaps they should pack it up and wait until they got home.. but hey, who knows if thats what they really did?? wouldnt surprise me BUT perhaps they jus um had to go?? so i didnt.. i jus laffed like a loony when i was walking by the hall door w/ my food.. hahahahaha weeeeeeeeeee... im so bored.. did i mention that this is my 100th entry?? yep-o!! waaahooo!! i dunno.. this shows how much of a life i dont have ive had this thinger for what? 2 months, 3 weeks and 3 days?? or something like that?? and ive got 100 entries.. how obvious is it that I HAVE NO LIFE? lol im running out of things to type about... my head is in a daze, since you went away. life's so much better for me, why couldnt i see? you had me blinded, memorys keep me reminded. why did i have to get swept in, into a situation impossible to win. i sigh, as i gaze into the sky. i wish i could fly, soar so high. leave this place, all this toxic waste. slowly it kills us, accept it without a fuss. to a new world, im a different girl. without another word i go, in this place we call our home. ill keep quiet, so as not to start a riot. you and your temper, jus like foul weather. things have changed, nothing remains the same. i could care less, about this mess. im glad its done, it was no longer fun. me you played, you had your way. im glad you were amused, im no longer abused. you think you look cool, but to me you're the fool. you didnt know what you had, so you treated me bad. now im gone away, im gone to stay. you wanted slack, now im never coming back. i know you dont care, i dont know why i bother to share. you didnt get another notch on your bed post, ill become a past-relationsip ghost. put the memories in a box, use a chain and lock. i hope you never forget and i hope you'll some day regret. when your world comes crashing down, and no one is around. i can laugh and say, you had it coming anyway!! humm yah and *that's all i got to say about that* until tomorrow.. |